moving site. lol. i am going to use blogger now. so, here's the link to my new blog (it lags too much here in vox, sorrry)
new blog; THROWING PUNCHES AT LIES
mum gave me a little flying kiss just now. my whole family left me at home..alone. nah, just kidding. with kak anum. but still she dont talk that much. soo..i will feel bored and..alone. they went to pahang visiting my granparents there. i decided not to go because i have trials coming up, and im worried that i might not study there due to the very hot temperature. im not sure i'll be able to cope there. its blooody hot. cant imagine how my grandma can cope with the heat. but im sure she is used to it.
but look on the bright side. HEY! no brothers, especially RASHDAN! yeay! but i have to admit, its quite boring without them, and im quite scared. but hey, i have to be independent..yeah..independent :/
i wonder hows everyone doing. they barely contact me. that is only when they had something to say like studying or something important. they barely asked me how am i doing with my life, any problems? basically, im the one who wonders alot about them. i know that i dont have a phone now, but they can always contact me on my mum's cell. its not like my mum is gonna freak out when she sees my friends texted on her mobile. sheesh. but, i guess everyone is busy with their life. and i sometimes feel left out for a moment.
its like, everyone is moving but im still stuck and glued here watching people pass me by.
like, he has found new friends, and sometimes i feel that he doesnt care about me and his old friends. when i told him about "the problem", i can see in his eyes that he doesnt want to listen to the craps anymore. its like, he transformed into somebody else. i dont know how to describe the differences but i know there is. and i dont know why too, but everyone seem so different.
and sometimes, i really dont get it. what do i dont have in me but the others had to make my friends happy?.... but "they" had?
i wanted to apologize to people for my wrong doings. selamat menjawab for SPM trial.
:(
sometimes i am clueless. about what? for they who get emotional all the sudden. they wont talk, not even with their best friends, since they got someone else which is more..important i guess. but when that happens, you will ask yourself what is wrong with them? did i do something wrong, or something wrong happened. but when they wont tell us, its just sad. trust issues much? and i am sick with all that ignoring your friends thingy. its not necessary and friends dont really deserve that. i am just so boring of it. why dont you just tell us your problems. what are friends for? to be ignored and to get ditch when you're down?
hmm, think about that...
not saying anything, but i never do that to my friends. because i understand how they will feel if i do that to them. i know its not a right thing to do. if you could just stop all those childish foolish and start to be open to us. i might not be the person for you to express your problems because you have someone else now, but i am still your best friends. and i deserve to know....
i love my best friends, no matter what <3
we wont be seventeen forever. and i read in the seventeen mag, if you sulk alot, its annoying and its not mature. ooh, and its not sexy! and guys wont like it! ahaha:)
toodles
yep, ramadhan has arrived people! i seriously cant wait to fast. and raya! but wait..something gets in our way. SPM! yep, darn it. that is soo not cool. npk nya tak raya sgt la tahun ni. darn it. but you know, we have to sacrifice once in awhile.
meanwhile, i dont get him. he is okay at first, but the next day...i knew that something was wrong. he didnt talk to me, and when i texted him, he replied like a short text. and that kindda pisses me off when people do that. what? did i do something wrong?
okay, i am sorry. gosh cheer up! we wont be seventeen forever!
yesterday my class had a ramadhan feast. there are lots and lots of delicious food. and everyone enjoyed themselves. took alot of pictures and i can see that our class is the craziest but the best ever! cant imagine the day when we leave school...must be sad :( so here are some of the pictures:
okay ppl. HAPPY FASTING! and dont skip! :D
okay spm trial is in two weeks. im still on my way to get myself ready before the exam. but i know that i will be fine. gosh, people pray for me! :)
im so jealous looking at my sister's pictures. she is sooo beautiful, and i wish i was her. she got the best boyfriend ever and i envy her for everything she's got. i get jealous looking at everyone! gosh, why am i soo borrrriing? huhhh?!?! wish i can buy new clothes and i wish i have lootttss and lootttsssa money! sutpid me
grr!!!!
the whole class were separated from our gangs. cg. maisara said that she couldnt stand seeing us talking when the teacher is talking during class. especially me, amariah and wawa. its just sad you know. but, i dont really bother anyway. i dont really care whom i seat with, maybe its for the best. i dont really know who to talk to because i couldnt talk to atiqah cause im not that close to her. but you know, just give it a shot. i know that i can concentrate better there. the only thing i hated about my seat is that, i couldnt see anything at the front. because the boys are tall and its very far away from what i thought it would be like. however, amariah and wawa..i just knew that they will be so pissed off. amariah and i were defending wawa because she has to seat next to aima. which she really object. so then, yeah. she's very mad. and she was sulking. amariah said something that i was shocked to hear it too. and yeah, teacher was reaaaaallly really mad. hmmm... i know its tough for you guys. but still, maybe its for the best. you know, when you dont have friends to talk to besides you, you'll actually concentrate better. :) and you guys know that nothing can tear us apart. we just moved seats right? cheer up
besides than having a sore throat and failed at singing high notes. we sang. akmal and i played guitar. it was super. but i think it could've been better. and they could've listen to us than talking. haih. but other than that, it was nice. and darn it for forgetting my camera. :/ oh well.
akmal was soooo good at playing guitar. i am so jealous of him. he is a fast learner. and he knows how to play those power chords so fast. i can play the power chords, but i cant be bothered to learn remembering the names. he shocked me. and i wish i can play as fast as him. you know what? i think that he is more better than me. and it was kind of cool that i can sing while someone playing the guitar. its really boring singing and playing guitar alone :P so akmal, well done! :D
2 more weeks till spm trial. i am really sicking worried and scared. but i think i'll be okay. my grades are getting better and better. especially my chemistry! i have chemistry with my chemistry now, finally! i hope that i will do great for my trial. lets just hope :)
and yeah, im in love with this song. hee hee. though its quite cheesy and i dont know who i can relate too, really. but i fell in love with it.
You
Like driving on a sunday
You,
Your like taking off on monday
Youuuu
Your like a dream, a dream come true
I, was just a face you never noticed
Now, im just trying to be honest
with myself, with you, with the world
You might think,
think I'm fool for
fallin over you
so tell me what i
can do to prove to you
that is not so hard to do
Give love a try
One more time
Do you know that im on your side
Give love a try
One more time
yeah, Ohhhh
kay thats really it. till then :)
8th day since im terribly sick. fortunately i am not on dengue. i just had a normal virus, thank god. but seriously this is the worse. ive never been this sick before. i suppose to go to school today. but my dad said dont waste my mc leave. so..i didnt go to school. besides all of the teachers are sick too. gosh as much as i hate to say it, i really do miss school. and my friends. yeah. its so boring staying at home. too long. but tomorrow i'll be ready to go to school. cant wait. although that im not 100% recover yet. i have a bad cough still.
hihi :)
