haha, okay, as we aaalll know that the new moon trailer came out yesterday. i was going to stay up to wait for myspace to upload the new moon trailer, which is 7 pm in u.s (we will still be sleeping over here). but i was just way too tired. and sleepy i guess. so i cant. soo...
OMJAAAAAAY! the new new moon trailer (AND ITS THE OFFICIAL SUMMIT ENTERTAINMENT)! :)
that is it! omg, it looks exactly how i pictured it to be like! the scene looks exactly how i pictured it in my head. you know how bella's blood drop then jasper comes at her, flying i guess. then, the scenery when edward left her, and she was all alone. and the time when bummed with laurent. EXACTLY I TELL YA, exactly. MAN, i am good. i cant wait. wait, i need cpr. I REALLY CANNOT WAIT! i cannot wait any longer. i hate waiting. haha. okay, i am so extra. but yeah whatever. well, my friends are not that crazy about it, but who cares anyway? i do. lol.
oooh ooooh! edward cullen and jacob are sooo damn hot. i am melting! melting....melting. i dont know which one to choose now :( i love edward cullen but i also love jacob. jacob has hot abs, and cute face. edward has nice face, nice eyes, nice hair..nice body. hahahahha. okay. wooowwwwww, i am going crazy. help me to choose! i want edward but i also want jacob. (btw, jacob is the same age as me! wohoo). i know right? awesome.
*man i need to get a life
psst/ i am sooo gonna be among the first to watch twilight new moon saga! (over at malaysia) muahaha. btw, the movie looks soo much better than the first one. people say that twilight sucks, but what the heck, since you are a twilight fan, you will always agree of whatever they do. i am so glad they did new moon. hoping to continue doing eclispe.
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so today at school. darn it was boring as hell. i went completely daft. add maths was shit. but lk was alright. we only did tangents and it wasnt that hard for me, maybe some parts but i manage to do it. so its not a problem for me. btw, have i told you that i got 73%? yes i did. crap dont you think. but what makes me proud of myself is, i can do tangent. i got full mark. awesome right? dont you think? i know i'll probably talking to myself in this blog, and noone will read it, but what the heck its my blog. haha
he changed. me and my girls think that he changed so much about himself and the way he treat us. he doesnt tell us his secrets anymore. hm, but something tells me, he is different, and he is not usually like this. we are not trying to create a fight, but he is different. and i dont know what i meant by different. what do we meant by different?
okay so thats probably it. im gonna take a nap. probably not, because i am still in shocked, of new moon. thats right, i am being soooo extra. i wish i can have someone screaming with me right now. :( can you be that someone? no you cant. no you cant. not anymore you cant.
my sister, ANA BANANA, as everyone calls her. yes yes, its her birthday on the 4th of june. and we are planning to go out to watch two movies in a day. i cannot wait! we are going to watch, 17 again and hannah montana the movie. oh yeah baby, we are so gonna watch it. it comes out the same date as my sister's birthday *how lucky, hmmm. i wish my birthday will be exiting as hers. i can make comparisons. if we were in england, june will be summer, and it will be so warm and cosy. but compared to mines, which is what again? 18th of january is it? it will be in winter, which is soo darn cold and nasty. yeah, you can see the difference alright. i am always cold. my parents even remembered her birthday like a month before it. i remembered the time when my dad gave a birthday card to her (when she turned 13). she became a teenager. but when it was the time i turned 13? they just say happy birthday, and thats it. only ana said happy birthday. then everyone was like 'OOHHH, its your birthday toodaaayy, ohhhh yeaaah. happy birthday' yeah. thats how it used to be. sometimes, i hate birthdays. wait..not sometimes. i always hate birthdays. but what to do? i have to always pretend to like and smile awaaaayyy :) however that doesnt mean that i dont appreciate to them people who always be there for me.
yesterday, my mum told be about my childhood. of how i used to be like. she told me that when i was little, my mum and dad always thought that i have hearing problems, yeah deaf. they say that, when they talk to me, i was always nodding and i dont say much. and i would just sit in the corner, doing my own thing while my sister is out having so much fun with her friends. they also said that i never talk to them, and they even brought me to see the doctor. but fortunately, doctor said i am fine. i just dont talk much. i knew i was like that anyway. i am often quiet with my family. i can only be talking so much when i am with my friends.
haha. so thats pretty it
roger and out! <3
first of all, i want to wish bain his 17th birthday! i hope he is having fun. and i am truly very sorry that i am not among the poeple who called you first. i was way too sleepy and tired. sorry again. but i hope that you will have fun on your birthday. god bless you, and to all the haters out there, bain is a great guy and he is my best friend! if you want to hurt him, you gonna have to go through me first! :) hihi (p.s/ i hope that you like the t-shirt that we bought!)
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OMG, OMJ OMGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADD, GOOOOODD! NO WAY, OMMGGGGAAAAAAAAAY! OMJJJAAAAY! *sorry haha
hahahhaha. okay stop it lisa. guess what?! NEW MOON BABY! NEW MOOOONNNNN! the trailer is coming out! i dont care. so what if its only the trailer, but omjaay! its coming out. TODAY! over at u.s -.- but who cares, its coming ouuutt! check out this article:
Sunday, May 31, will be the day "The Twilight Saga's New Moon" debuts its first trailer. The promotional video for the Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart-starrer vampire drama will be made available for viewing pleasure at MySpace as well as during the airing of 2009 MTV Movie Awards
.
MySpace will host the online premiere, revealing on Thursday, May 28, that the site will put out the trailer at its Trailer Park section at 7:45 P.M. PT or 10:45 P.M. ET. "Four moons left! The World Online Premiere of the trailer from the most anticipated film of 2009 is happening right HERE on Trailer Park after 7:45 P.M. PST on Sunday, May 31," so read the announcement. "We're getting the chills just thinking about it and don't know how we're going to handle the wait."
On the same day MySpace made the announcement, MTV unveiled that the network will also unravel the trailer. Clarifying its earlier statement, it uncovered that the clip to be presented by Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart and Taylor Lautner during 2009 MTV Movie Awards show is actually "New Moon" first trailer. It then went on to state that the trailer will be aired at 9:00 P.M. ET.
"The Twilight
Saga's New Moon" revolves around Bella Swan as she is left devastated
by the abrupt departure of her vampire lover Edward. But, her spirit is
rekindled by her growing friendship with the irresistible Jacob Black.
Suddenly she finds herself drawn into the world of the werewolves,
ancestral enemies of the vampires, and she finds her loyalties tested.
This "Twilight" sequel has officially begun its production in Vancouver in mid-April. An adaptation of Stephenie Meyer's second novel in her "Twilight" series, it is penned by "Twilight" screenwriter Melissa Rosenberg and directed by "The Golden Compass" helmer Chris Weitz. The vampire drama movie is targeting a U.S. release on November 20.
okay maybe i am just a little bit too over the top (okay, waay, i admit) but i am just too damn exited because i love edward cullen and i love jacob too. eventhough that jacob turns out really weird at the end. wait! i havent finished the book yet. i am on the few last chapter, and i ammm sooo finishing it, right noww! (after i blog this out okay?)
okay, other than the whole twilight thingy. today was way boring -.- but till the twilight came up! i was delighted! damn, i cant hardly wait..and hardly breathe too. i deed cpr
roger and out!
what a tiring day.
i went to school today, eventhough i knew that alotta people wont show up. including my best friends. i thought that she would come today, i already wanted to forgive her and make things better. but, she didnt show up. and i end up being alone the whole day. well, i dont really care of being alone now, maybe that i have to be. it sucks i know, but i am not bothered anymore, as if they care. i'm pretty O-kay. i only talk with bain that day, and i came to school to only to give his birthday present and to hand out my est file and physics peka. so that was it. i sleep alot though. i didnt eat at school, and i didnt go for recess. i slept through recess. it was....quiet.
then, 'they' texted me. i was so mad, and i dont think there should be a reason to be mad. its their choice whether they want to come up to school or not. right?
after that, my mum had a conference meeting over at the hotel nearby klcc. my mum wants me to come along. so, i did. i hang out at klcc alone all day. i just got back from klcc tho. it was boring. because i dont have anything to buy, i just hang out at konikuya. thats pretty it. i ate laksa shack...and.....when i felt sooo utterly bored and tired. i went outside and sat on the stairs for a bit. taking some fresh air. i dont want to think about my problems and friends for a bit. i was reading new moon on the few last chapters. then.......a guy came up. he suddenly sat next to me. then, he started talking to me. he said that he has been watching me all these while and why am here for soooooo long. (isnt that sweet??) i thought of not answering it, but then, i had too. he's looks nice. so i replied. then we talked and talked and talked. he is 18 and still studying in...i cant recall. it was nice talking to someone new :) his name is am (if i am not mistaken). my mum came, he quickly asked for my number, and i gave it to him. you know...for new friends sake :] its not wrong right. and it would be tooo bad if i rejected him because he is brave enough. and....i was wondering all these while..would anyone be asking my number? i am not pretty and skinny and loaded and cool. im boring. and fat. and yada yada yada. ugly. its weird. lol. he is so sweet :) he makes my day.
oh hm, then me and my mum went shopping for shoes. i bought a rm143 topshop shoes. i loved it! and a tank top. thanks mum! you are the best :)
my feet hurts soo badly and i am fucken exhausted! i am tired of everything.
i dont feel like forgiving people now, because i know that they will repeat the same mistakes. its bullshit. and it hurts! ALOT. thanks alot. okay...chillax lisa.
so this is a song from coldplay-fix you...it looks like it was written for me. (no not really, but it really is my story)
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
we had teachers day! it was super fun, but not the part that i had a bit of a headache. school was tiring, well sitting was. i am having cramps now. haha. i like the singing and playing guitar act the best. it was awesome! :) i also like the part where the teachers and practical teachers sang, and especially when cg. billy played his guitar. marvelous. everything i guess.
so this is a video of teacher sang together. and teacher zaini is there :) well...this is what i got. till my battery went completely dead. haha
i gave the presents to teacher zaini adam and teacher maisara. i hope they like it, and i really appreciate them :)
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i am getting crazier and crazier about hafiz af7. shhh! :P i love him so much, and i love his voice. especially when he sang his new song 'masih jelas' and 'i believe i can fly'. my mum likes akim, but he is okay. i like him too. but hafiz will always be the best. i wish i can meet him, and i swear to god i will scream like hell. haha. i never thought that i will ever like anyone from af but, him? he is simply the best. to be honest, ive never liked malaysian singers that much till i saw him on tv. well. eventhough that he doesnt know me, but hey? im a fan. haha. okay. stop it lisa. welll..he has change my perceptions through malaysian singers only. i'll always support HIM (only hafiz) and malaysian bands :) im weird i know.
hmm, i got 73% a2 for LK this time. close to my target. what a bummer. i wanted an A1 but i am satisfied with it. ive tried my best and it was my fault because i didnt complete on the last question (because i cant answer it) haha. oh please..ENGLISH! I want it to be an A this time. i did my best okay, so lets hope that i can do it! sheesh. physics and chemistry? nah. i already knew that i would fail. especially chemistry. my weakest subject! so okay, i know that they have target me...somehow. they took it from end of year test, last year. when i was in form 4! obviously. i didnt try my best. its not my best. so that's why they target me 4 a1. HAHA. i can do better than that! i know that i can. those are only tricks. and i am soooo not falling for that. not this time. i got pretty uspet when bain told me about that. but im gonna work hard, and i wanna beat zaki >:D MUAHHAHA. cheyaaah rite. but worth a try. haha
other than that,
sometimes, i dont get what people expect from me. i was just trying to make them happy. but they cant seem to appreciate me :( how can they do this to me? is it because i easily forgive people. its just not fair. i dont care anymore if they want to be mad at me or what, because i didnt do anything. they always say they best friends always care for each other, and always mention to everyone, to the whole world that 'you are my bestfriend'. but i never see that comin' from you. from this on, no more miss goody-goody. i am done.
roger and out!
The past few days, i got a bit stressed out. i was too upset with myself. and i was starting to give up. i am sorry if i had worried my friends.
today i cut school. WE actually. me, amariah, akmal, jemey and zaq. i was really upset of wawa, i really want her to come with us :'( i miss her today tho. but we cant interfere the situation with between her dad and her. cant do anything :( we went to mid valley. well, the main thing is to get bain's birthday present. and we did :) we went into shops by shops. but hey, i knew topshop is the best to get men's clothes (maybe because i want my boyfriends to wear something like that, HAHA, get real lisa). we have troubles of choosing the best design for him. and we were fighting over t-shirts (not exactly fighting but, you get what i mean). but then, luckily i found something that captured my eyes straight away! it was the beatles t-shirt! well, except that the beatles were placed by little monsters (so cute!). unfortunately, they dont have the right size for bain! (bain is too tiny!) but then again, this black t-shirt with monsters also captured my attention. and we bought it. we shared money and its only rm 73.00. i bet he will like it! cant harldly wait fer his bday to arrive and see his reactions! hee
after that, we went to see a movie to kill the time (if you know what i mean). at first we wanted to see terminator salvation, but then its rm 12 and we're short of money. then, we wanted to see push, but the its 18pl. then, decided to see x men: wolverine because that was the only movie we can watch which is rated as U. akmal and zaq tried to fool us, by saying that they pass 18pl, (chyeah rite, as if). so they bought x men: wolverine. well, to be honest the movie was boring because i knew what was going to happen to wolverine. the movie was only about him and how the x men was formed. i think that is the last movie from x men because it all make sense now.
after the whole movie. i had a little emergency. its quite embarassing to post it here. (hehe)
i went in mph several times today. i wanted to buy this book. it will really helps me alot. of how to deal with exams and studies. because i am struggling with that right now. it tells you to how to prevent stress (because of studies) and it gives you the best tips that i think it will work for me. (man, i really need that). i have one more chance. just one more chance! i need to work really hard. i had enough rest today. and after this, i will hit the books!
so now, all i need is a little boost and encouragement! that book will really help me to build my inner strength. i need that book! I WANT THAT BOOK! ahh. hehe.
while i was on the 5th page of reading the book *(amariah wasnt with me, she was with jemey, sending him). amariah found me. and she told me a bad news. and god, i swear to god, i cant stop thinking about it. i really cant believe the news. its shocking. i will never thought that he will lie to us, to me. i thought he was different. but clearly we dont know if he did. i know amariah wont lie. and i thought he wont lie. amariah just witnessed something that is bad. really bad. reaallly reallly bad.......
the shock made us...shocked. and we cant concentrate on finding clothes that we like. so i had a few bucks with me. we ate baskin robin. that'll shut us up, and it really did. they say, 'the magic of ice cream'. it will shut you up. haha.
there is something about the eyes. the way it looks at me. its...different. who is he??? if only i knew...hm
dream on
okay, so that is really it. i am trying to figure myself out here.
i need the book. okay..
<3
i am starting to feel that i am hopeless and useless. everyone is being so pushy, especially my parents. sheesh. i am struggling now. i dont know what to do anymore. today i had chemistry and physics paper 1. and oh boy :S. chemistry sucks. gaaaah! i dont know most of the answers to the questions. it was awfully hard! damn it! why cant i do it? i tried my best but i just cant. i am soo stupid. i even cried during the exams (hope noone sees me). it was shit. completely shit. i didnt have time to complete all of the questions and...i gave up. i am giving up :(
i am giving up.....
should i?
lord i needed was a call...
wake up call..
what am i doing to myself! gargh!!!
stupid..no matter how hard i worked. i never accomplished in anything i do...USELESS! yes, lisa..youre a fucken loser.
yeah i dont have any idea what to put as the title. so i just put the title of the new the fray song. its my fav now. lol
okay so i wanted to update this blog yesterday, but my dad wont let me go on the internet. instead he wanted me to go upstairs and open the books. sheesh. cant i get a little rest around here? :/ people are putting so much pressure on me. sure i am a student, but i am also a human forgod's sake! gaah, give me a break...
so then, on the last friday. my mum went to the sunway college. and i decided to go with her. i dont want to go to the college, but i want to hang around suway pyramid....alone. i stayed in sunway mall for about 5 hours, i have to wait for my mum to finish her class. first thing pops out into my head. either buy myself a ticket to see a movie..alone. or maybe just go wandering around the mall, and shopping...alone. but then, i said to myself. well, i could be tired because of that. so i decided to go and buy the ticket first. so yeah i went to see the movie. i was thinking to see x men: wolverine. buuuttt, naaah too much action in a day. so yeah. i chose night at the museum 2. and the seats were all taken! it was a fullhouse. but then luckily, there was a seat. one space. on the top. so i was like.."ooooh, theres one up there, i'll have that seat then", that ticket guy said "one? just one? with you alone? you sure about that?", haha what a funny guy. so i said. "yeaah, im on my own". then he said. "oh kayy then, night a the museum 2, one at 4.00 pm, enjoy yourself, alone", he smiled. sheesh, too much alone word all at once.
so while waiting..i went to forever 21! ofcourse my favourite shopppp eevaaa! yeah. the time flies realll fast. and i mean. "whooossh!" like that fast. maybe because i was tooo obssessed to find something that i like, and it takes a while. hihi. i looked up at the time, and it was 3.55. so i had five mins to rush back to the cinema. and i did. ofcourse i did not run, but i was faster in walking than i was ever before. i bought myself a bucket of popcorn and coke. i was hoping the bucket to be small, so its easy for me to eat it all up alone. but then the small portion turns out to be soo huge. and i said to myself "how theee hecka the heck am i gonna eat it all up, ooh maybe i can..cause i hadnt ate my dinner yet". so i comfy my self in the cinema. and waited for the movie to come up. i had couples alll around me!! likee, 'ummm, am in the wrong room?' i thought this is suppose to be night the museum?! and i double checked my seat, which it was Q17, room 8. and i was in the right room.i had to be. right? hm, ooooooookay i had a chinese couple on my right, and malay so-called hot couple was on my left. hmm...great. so the movie start. and yeah i was in the right room. thank goodness. and i loved the movie! it cheered me up a lil! it was waaay too funny. and being with the the crowd of people was fun to be laughing with! you can laugh as loud because they never can hear you laughing while watching that movie. it was soo funny. i never stop laughing throughout the movie. i thought i can finish the popcorn. but i cant. bummer!!! what a waste. i can buy a lot of things with 5 ringgits. right? lol.
after the fantastic movie, i went to the forever 21. i bought a pair of jeans, and a long sleeve shirt :) then, i went around the mall. in to and out of the shops. waited waited and waited..bought sweets. and that was it. so i started to feel so bored alone. so i called amariah. it was awhile since i hadnt call her. maybe she was too busy with 'other' people. so yeah. when i called her, she doesnt sounds as exited as i did. well...yeah. you can never get 'that' exited with me around anymore :( she was like..."yeaaaaaahh??" hm. okay
so my 5 hours went real fast. and my feet was starting to hurt. and thank god my mum arrived. and i slept in the car. i promised my mum i had to come to tuition. grrr (darn it)..so yeah i did.
that was it really. nothing much..
yesterday, i dont know why i cried in the bed alone. i was starting to feel about my future again. i dont think i can do it. i can never do it. i never succeed in anything. i looked up at the whiteboard....i wrote all of the things that can encourage me. i wrote some of the stuffs that my friends, mostly iera said to me. i copied off everything she texted me...but then..sometimes people dissapears. i really wish sometimes that i was never here. i dont want to be here. here, in malaysia. or is it what i call home? i dont know why, but sometimes i really hate it here. i sometimes hate to be with the people i know. it doesnt really make a difference whether i am around or not. whether i tell my stories to them or not. because, one day...they are just gonna forget me..leaving me. throwing me into the dump. and one day.....
i am hopeless. stop counting on me. stop it. i never do anything right.
when you look at the date, sure you will think its still a long way to go. but actually, its not. the time is short. i am so scared. by looking at the spm time table scares me. but i am very exited. sure it will give me a little boost to revise.
so things have been under controlled lately, and i managed to overcome my stress and the trouble with sleeping. i am happy, well i think i am. i dont think as much about my friends now. i dont know why. sometimes i feel they too far away from me. but yeah they are still my friends. and amariah was sooo happy about hafiz af7 won. yeah i support him too. tho its so weird. lisa watching af? yeah. haha. laugh as loud as you can. but hey, hafiz is the best :) aagagga
after the whole exam. i am gonna exercise. all of those studying and stressing really makes me feeling fat. but i am. lol. hm. okay.
