the climb

Despite of having a huge pimple on my nose (darn it!), my family and i went to the movies. we watched Hannah Montana the movie. and i tell ya (eventhough i am not a big fan of miley, but i like her somehow, dont hate), i loved the movie so much! well, i was expecting miley to choose one, and she will be a huge hit for miley not hannah, and everyone accepts her lie. but uhm, she chose two. okay, dont read this, if youre gonna watch it. because im a spoiler. haha. the movies makes me cry a little bit. especially when she has to choose one, because when she has the best of both world, everything falls apart and she was just too busy. and the hannah thing always comes in between her loved ones. especially the hottie, lucas till as travis brody. he is so hot. damn. that movie lifts my spirit up. they have new songs, and i loved it. i dont care what people says, whether they hate her on not. she's cool in some ways :)

i cried just now. my sister wants to take this laptop away from me, just because her laptop is not working. and my mum said she wants to buy a desktop. but, its the same. all of them are going out, sending ana to shah alam. and i couldnt be bothered to follow because i want to relax at home. and online. but noooo, they came back. and they want to take this thing away from me. i cried, and i said that its not fair of how she broke her laptop, and she wants to take this away from me. i knew she wants to buy a new laptop. but i really need a laptop for now. well..because i want to update you. its going to be boriing without internet. grrh. but then my mum changed her mind, i betthey pity me..for some reasons. grrh she always gets everything.

i dont know why, i tense to get jealous of everything. and as i walk. i wish of new things. i hate going out with my sister, because she always get the attention that she wants

1. i wish i am pretty
2. i wish i am fairer
3. i wish i am taller
4. i wish i dont have skin problems
5. i wish i am skinnier
6. i wish someone will come into my life
7. i wish i can be in england right now
8. i wish someone can spend their money on me
9. i wish i have loads of money
10. i wish i have a new guitar
11. i wish i can write good lyrics
12. i wish i have nice eyes
13. i wish i dont have such weird face
14. i wish i can fly
15. i wish i am clever
16. i wish i can be cool
    
17. i wish people know me
18. i wish i know how to style
    
19. i wish i can be more like her
20. i wish that i dont have to wish all of these kinds of things

i am just a complete loser. i know. gargh :( i dont have friends now. i am a loser. loser!
see, i cannot control myself..i am never satisfied with myself. and i dont know why. its sad.
i just hate to think of all of these things.

i wish someone can take me away, and blow all of these thoughts. noone ever makes me feel so real.