New year is not what i thought it would be like,

sometimes what we wished for will never be granted,
but something we were never wished for will be,
reading the text messages you gave to me left me feeling hurt,
even if i am a bad person, i will always think before i speak,
to always find excuses will only make me even angrier,
and even if you blamed yourself, it will do it worser,
you chose it this way when you can change it,
but instead of you feeling the sadness,
i will have to, no matter what.

I did not misunderstood. But you said it yourself. "i thought at least i got my friends after i lost one..but tak?". real smart. all you can ever think of is always blame yourself. i dont even know when was the last time you said sorry "sincerely", and not by forcing yourself to do it just because you think that you are losing it. all i was trying to do is be there for you. when ever i tried to give you advices, but you will always have points to fight me back. what do you get in return?:

losing a friend

all i want to say is i miss you amariah. when is the last time i see you smile? or laugh? or even send me happy text messages. what done is done. Im sorry of what i said.

maybe i wont get to see fireworks with iera. i really wanted to. after all of those fights with amariah. I really do need so time to fresh my mind up. but hm. Oh god. give me a miracle.

other than that, i am happy with wawa. i got to see her, after all the months past by! i miss her so much. we talked and talked! so much. gosh. i really miss her. the last time i spoken to her was the day before the harmonians barbeque night. and on our last day of school, we fought. and it was on the last day of school. how can i do such a thing? poor wawa. gosh, i am so terribleee. at least i did make it up to her. :')

im so disappointed in you amariah.
oh and...
new year is not what i thought it would be like.

addicted to this song:superhuman (chris brown feat. keri hilson)